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Boys will be boys…

Bad boys,bad boys..you are showing your age if you are singing that song with me.lol It was like overnight the boys decided to make our house into the WWF.It makes for an interesting floor show.I am starting to wonder if I should just take a ring side seat and make popcorn.Last night was so bad that everybody went to bed early.Tristin knows what makes Braidi tick.So after Braidi yells at him several times thats it a little shove leads into a smack and before you know it they are wrestling each other on the floor.We have smackdown going on in the house.Tristin outweighs Braidi by only 5 pounds and he is so tall.Braidi is stocky and quick so you really never know who is going to win.If its this crazy now I can only imagine what the teen years will be like.I still wonder how my MIL did it with four boys.My two sure keep me hopping…So if you are interested in seeing a smackdown anytime soon I know where you can see it for free.And I will even provide the popcorn….

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The ex…

I awake this morning to my jaw killing me.Apparently during the dream I was clenching my teeth.After all theseyears how could such a horrible dream come back and get me?Given the title I figure you know what I dreamed about.So before I tell you my dream how about some history on me?I was fifteen when we met for the first time.Only a year older than me,but we ran in the same circles.A couple weeks into my freshman year he corners me after a class.At the time in my naive mind I thought of how romantic it was for him to go out of his way just to find me that day.Now I just think of how creepy it was for him to do that.Apparently he had been watching me to find me that way..*shutter*I was wondering if maybe you would like to go out some time?I told him I would have to think about it.Eventhough,we ran in the same group I had never talked to him before.The only dating I was allowed to do was by groups.After running to my next class and talking to some of the other girls I decided that there really couldn’t be any harm.So yes was my answer.Little did I know that the decision I made that day would set the course for my high school years.Everything was great at first.Then my sixteenth b-day came and I was finally able to go on real dates.Real dates that would set the same course for the next couple years.Things creep on you that starts adding up.At 95 pounds I was told I was fat.I got a job and he would just stop by because he didn’t trust me.He would wait for me after every class to walk me to the next because I guess he thought in between them I was screwing every guy in between.No makeup,watch what you wear..etc,etc.But he paid attention to me.Life at home wasn’t that great.My stepdad only acknowledged me when I did something wrong.Nothing was ever good enough.EventhoughI was working part time and paying my bills,getting good grades,and following the no drugs and drinking rule.One year with him went into another.Same old mentally he had won.Easier to agree than fight.Every spat we did have would mean something nice a gift,expensive dinner,clothes.Finally a few months shy of 18thb-day I walked out of my parents house and walked into the house his mom gave us.After years of the mental he decided it was time to step it up a notch.Just little things of course.I lasted long enough to finish school.Called my mom from a payphone and told her I was coming home.The last fight scared me so bad that I didn’t think I would actually survive.I was able to get the door locked and shut.When he took off I ran to his moms next door.They came and helped me pack.The last words spoken to me by them was to do better for myself get out and not to come back.And I did just that.When J and I met I was 88 pounds.When we started dating he told me I needed to fatten up and get it together if it was going to last.No truer words could be said.The dreams from those years left until I got pg with Tristin.I was scared he was going to take him.I dont know why so many years had passed it was just one of those things.For whatever reason stress brings on the horrible dreams.Its really funny because he is scared of J.He takes his anger out on women not men.Shows what a real man he was huh?So this morning I awoke to a sore jaw maybe its a sign that we need a family vaca.oh well whats that song I will survive..I did and that makes me a survivor in every sense of the word.So thosedreams can kiss my butt because I have won.And the ex well he married a very naive girl.And he is still up to all his old tricks with her.Of course she has it alot worse because she had a baby with him.If only there was a way to save everybody.

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All I want for Christmas….

Is my two front teeth...

Is my two front teeth...

Yep my baby lost his other tooth.He sounds so funny now when he talks.The tooth fairy has a couple dollars lined up to put under his pillow.Monica I actually had merina up until Nov. when I had it removed to get my body back to normal to possibly try for babe number 3.As it stands girls I think for now I am sticking with the b/c pills.I am on one that works for me and we will see what happens.I just can’t do something so final.Enough things have been taken away lately.Besides that the pill is helping with my cycle.The surgery messed all my hormones up really bad and I am only regular now because of the pills.So for now pills it is.Believe me I am really good at taking pills.You would nnot believe me if I told you all the crap I was on.Lets see b/c,vitamins,pain,muscle relaxer,anxiety,sleep,depression..depression/anxiety me no way..lol..I got to looking at the pamplet anyways for the essure and its coils they put in your body I am not sure how that would react with all the scans I have to get done.The reason I say that is back when I had my IUD I had a scan done and the lady said it could possibly mess with my IUD because of how its made???can’t remember so the longer I sit on this the more I think the pills work so why fix what is working for now??Since the only person really worried about it is the Dr I am just going to wait awhile longer..I take a pill that is effective and we are still careful….thats my thoughts atleast..So thank ya all for the advice and I still say we should get together for the choc. and wine because its been a hell of a year and I am going to turn thirty..Never knew if I would be celebrating this one.So its time for some adult time and a sitter..

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Misc. Friday…

Another day at the Ty house.Tristin has finally made a recovery from the bronchitis.Only to share it with the rest of us.Oh the joys of antibiotics.Everybody is enjoying the quite since mommy can barely squeak words out.We are still waiting on word from dis*bility.Please let this go through.I am growing tired of looking at medical bills.When J and I mapped out our future together we never figured for any of this.I can remember our talk about having my tubes tied after Braidi and we decided to wait.Thinking maybe we might one day include a third in our family.I figured the procedure would be done in the hospital after our last baby…that didn’t work out.Instead the descision was made for us.I take care of the b/c control in this family.Why you ask after everything we have went through?Because the big man that I married that has only a few fears,is scared of Doctors and Dentists.He has only been to the Dr when he has been so sick I didn’t think he would make it…or a physical because its been work related thats it.He doesn’t take meds. when hes sick.He depends on his body to kick its butt.So to ask him to go to the Dr. for a snip job is not gonna happen.No sharp objects near him nope lol….The hardest thing about this is that I feel like something else is being taken away..first my left side and now my choice to have more babies..I will get a handle on it I just cant yet..so anyways I hope you all have a great weekend.And hope you start feeling better soon Monica..

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Decision 2008

The news I heard yesterday was actually my second opinion.The first one came from my brain doc.We new it was coming I was just wanting to hear something different.Even a couple years from now the strain would just be to much.They had to dig really deep into my spine and brain to get the tumor out.I will have scans every six months for a really long time.So I guess what it could possibly come down to would be whats more important me and the two healthy boys I have or another pregnancy.All I know is that I am needed so its a chance we cant take.Is it fair?Not really but is life ever.Atleast I had my babies when I did.The procedure I will be having done is called Essure once its done thats it you cant reverse it.I can get it done in the office with barely any pain.I told them I would set the appointment up later because mentally my brain is just fried.I have to prepare for it and I haven’t yet.But like evrything else life goes on.So I guess next year when Braidi starts preschool I will have lots of mommy time.Want to go with me and drown our sorrows in choc. and wine?

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Can’t wait to say goodbye…

 

To my twenties that is.This last year has been a test for us.All of us.Honestly how much crazy stuff in life are we suppose to deal with before we crack.Life is just hard and I don’t think it gets easier.I have been blessed with two healthy boys,a husband,cancer free card.Today I saw my gyno. we talked about the surgery everything that happened,the pain,tears ,frustration.I have to tie my tubes.Its a step I have tried to avoid thinking maybe in two years if we wanted another,if my left side went back to normal etc…not going to happen.When you get pg the strain it puts on your brain and spine would be to much for my body.An oops on our part would result in trying to sustain the pg in the big city hospital seeing a specialist.With my scary high pg’s to begin with its not a good equation.I know that…We barely got Braidi here safely.I’m done thats it..So mentally I need to prepare myself for the appointment.It’s done in the office now while you are awake..So I am ready for the goodbye twenties and praying for a happy healthy thirties.Thirty man how did it creep up so fast.Instead of dreading Oct 1 and the new age I am going to embrace it like a long lost friend.Please let life continue to get better.It has to get better right?

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To much to do not enough time….

Sorry it feels like time flies right out the door.We are still busy as ever.Wednesday I went out of town with hubby and am still paying for it.Every part of my body cries out for help lol.Tristin is fighting a nasty cold,and Braidi is still rotten as usual.Sunday we ended up with some of the winds left over from Ike.I watched as my chair on the deck flew across it and hit the car..Oops thank goodness no damage.Our new little hamster is amusing and we laugh at the things he does.I’ll have to post his picture later,but am to tired now.Today I was suppose to have lunch with the girls,but that isn’t going to happen.HJonestly I just want to lay with the heating pad..lol we will put it this way I miss normal.My Dr. said that some of it is surgery related and the rest is the car accident.In 2 weeks I hit thirty.Were is all the time going.J has something up his sleeve and a friend is going with me to get pampered.I applied for dis*bility and pray it goes through.They think it will the first time,but I am a pessimist.Life is hard and doesn’t always go the way we want it.We are still looking for property and we are even considering the State thats across the river from us.aS LONG AS IT IS CLOSE TO bUB’S SCHOOL AND HAS A REALLY NICE YARD FOR THE KIDS i DON’T CARE…Just realized the caps was on the whole time oh well….to sore to care.I wish we had a way of helping the Ike victims what a sad situation.Glad you made it home ok Kayce.Sorry for the poor wittle me party rough week…So I will talk to ya all later have a good weekend…

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